This has been such a strange year. With the ever-spreading pandemic leaving so much anxiety and uncertainty in the air, I find myself emotionally exhausted most days. The days of the week are blending together. Everything just feels “off”.
Normally I can be found wandering the Botanical Gardens in the Spring to photograph the flowering cherry trees, but the COVID-19 pandemic has kept many of our favorite places closed until further notice in an effort to protect the public and mitigate the spread of the Coronavirus. Even with our shelter-in-place orders, many people are still venturing out into the outdoors in large groups. As a result, the State has begun to shut down several public parks due to overcrowding.
Cooped-up inside while working from home has made me feel a tad claustrophobic. Staying indoors has made Spring feel more like an extension of Winter. Unemployment in the United States is surpassing record-breaking numbers, leaving so many people filled with fear and uncertainty. Because of this especially, I am incredibly thankful to be safe, healthy, and still employed. I read an interesting article relating the discomfort we are all feeling to grief. It does, in a sense, feel like we are grieving. These are harrowing times, and the world feels changed.
The past few weeks have been a time of introspection and reflection. As I have cut certain things out of my daily routine, I will be considering which things are really important to return to, when life returns to normal. Yesterday I ventured outdoors to photograph a flowering tree in my neighborhood. It felt great to step outside and breathe in the fresh Spring air.